Pelin Karahan Fan

.. And I Lust
Stately columns standing in solemn rows
Such empty honours are suitable for those
Whose death erases all renown and fame
And vanquishes their glory with their name

Wandering aimlessly through dead filled fields
Rewards are just, who knows what absence yields?

By the golden beauty of dusk
And the sun low in our sky
By the haunting shadows of trees
And graves, mesmerized am i.

Searching deep inside trying to reach my dreams
I see a face stare back at me... oh, so serene.

By the golden beauty of dusk
And the sun low in our sky
By the haunting shadows of trees
And graves, mesmerized am i.

Those whispering shades... sad, silent glades

But not for those whose superior worth
After death extols them to the earth
I would even venture to assume
That one need not build for them a tomb
By human art, since glory heaven sent
Serves them as a living monument

Pain is a far away land,
Misery, a lifetime's journey...
...and i lust for death (judgement.)

A Dying Wish
I bear the seed of ruin
A golden age turned to stone
Elysium... to dust

For this, a tragic journey
A vision of a dying embrace
Scattered earth
Silence...

Where echonia wept
I sank into the silent desert

Fallen am i,
In solitude of a broken promise
...i cried alone
My empyrean is a scar
From the memory of her beautiful life
Forever was her name

Fulfilment lost in a lifetime of regret
Ornate peace would cover me
As i would die now...
For one last wish

A Fine Day To Exit
Long way from home, nowhere to go
What made the river so cold?
The sweat of thoughts trickle down my brow
Soaking and stinging my eye
You gotta face it head on
So you can turn this thing around
Cos this ain't right
Tell tale sighs and cries of dreams unfulfilled
And time is running, running dry
Panic stricken bloodshot hearts
Try to restart
But no longer build the well to survive
Sweet oblivion
You gotta face it head on
So you can turn this thing around
Cos this ain't right
I got these feelings and I don’t know why
I see all my fears in the darkness of light
What made the river so cold?
Never anyone to rearrange and fall to
Time inside the empty
Call to the blameless I am faithless
Placid dying eyes
You gotta face it head on
So you can’t turn this thing around
Cos this ain’t right
You have to go eye to eye
Raise your face to the sky
Cos this ain’t right
I got to believe when I say
Only this is the way

A Natural Disaster
Its been a long cold winter without you
I've been crying on the inside over you
Just slipped through my fingers as life turned away
Its been a long cold winter since that day

Its hard to find
Hard to find
Hard to find the strength now but i try
And i don't want to
Don't want to
Don't want to go on and speak now
Of what's gone by
Cos no matter what i say
No matter what i do
I cant change what happened
No matter what i say
No matter what i do
I cant change what happened

You just slipped through my fingers
And i feel so ashamed
You just slipped through my fingers
And i have paid

Cos no matter what i say
No matter what i do
I cant change what happened
No matter what i say
No matter what i do
I cant change what happened
No no i can't change

Just slipped through my fingers
And i feel so ashamed
You just slipped through my fingers
And i have paid.

A Simple Mistake
Think for yourself you know what you need in this life
See for yourself and feel your soul come alive tonight
Here in the moment we share, trembling between the worlds we stare
Out at starlight enshrined, veiled like diamonds in..

...time can be the answer, take a chance, lose it all
It's a simple mistake to make to create love and to fall
So rise and be your master you don't need to be a slave
Of memory ensnared in a web, in a cage

I have found my way to fly free from the constraints of time
I have soared through the sky seen life far below in mind
Breathed in truth, love, serene, sailed on oceans of belief
Searched and found life inside, we're not just a moment in time...

....can be the answer, take a chance lose it all
It's a simple mistake to make to create love and to fall
So rise and be your master you don't need to be a slave
Of memory ensnared in a web, in a cage

All Faith Is Lost
As the dawn emerges i cry in grief
Sorrows flow,
The sadness of another day tortures my heart

Life fades. echoes, voices calling
Within my mind. shadows. i cry

My senses deteriorated
I break down devoid of hope
All faith is lost. why live?

I beg for mercy, i plead, tell me
Why? why me?
Why must i be one of the chosen?

Forgive me for my inquisition
Please answer, i offer my condition
My eyes are closed, i call to the darkness
Allowing the gloom to swallow me
I relax

Gripping my soul as i'm extracted from reality
The umbra chills me
I levitate, staring at my inanimate corpse
Drifting towards the eternal bliss
Beckoned by beings superior
Colossal roar of silence deafens me

I disburden myself
Where am i bound?

My trappist ways are forgotten
As peralsized souls cry out for me
Impassive, i atrive for the light
My true self finally manifests
I am found.